Watch It All Fade

I feel inadequate in many ways. Those whom I have deemed to be my closest friends have either deserted me or violated me in accordance with values that I feel to be either unjust or unappreciative. While I still remain strong in the face of fear and betrayal, I cannot help but question the decision-making and, well, quite frankly, thoughtlessness of others as I stride on towards my pursuit of happiness. Just know this: Every day I try to conquer my goals in order to accomplish what I feel is necessary to be deemed as “worthy” or “just” as others see fit. And yet, it is this very feeling that I am lacking due to others in what I can only assume is abandonment in faith. Don’t worry. I won’t fail you, nor will I fail myself. If you wish to doubt me, then continue to doubt. I will not stop you. But just know that it is with these words that I will prove myself. I will be that better man. And, well… while you might not listen, I will struggle against all that I feel is wrong because I am who I am… And not any of you can take that away from me. With my undying optimism and a hopeful heart, I’m sure I will succeed. And to anyone else that says otherwise… Fuck you. You don’t matter.

See, I’m all like “I’m going to miss the fucking shit out of you”

And you’re all like